Over the last few years the pain in my right leg has worsened to the point where walking, even with the aid of two sticks has become too painful. Despite having worked extremely hard to retain the ability to walk, the distance I have been able to endure has slowly decreased.
Towards the end of December I borrowed a wheelchair from a friend. I was not eager to do this as it could be seen as quitting, but I had the feeling that it might just offer me something I had been missing.
During the last week I have been out for several ‘wheels’ (walks or pushes) and I have learnt that the chair brings me two valuable gifts. The first is the ability to exercise and burn off some of the weight I have accumulated through comfort eating. Secondly and perhaps more importantly the chair gives me the ability to get out and about.
The chair will not be a permanent feature of my life, but rather than another tool I can use to battle the demon that is CRPS.
I wrote this poem to celebrate my return from one such wheel. Please feel free to leave a comment.
Sweet music envelopes my soul
it soothes away tension
and warms a heart, that pain
cooled and hardened.
I sit in a country lane
and listen to birds
as they sing of freedom amidst
the branches of leaf stripped trees.
At home two sticks rest.
Today a wheelchair bore me
to a place I could not reach
and for a while, bought me freedom.